Day one… 

So I did it!!! I finally came home, fed Toby,  dug deep into my wardrobe and found my workout clothes. I put them on…ignored the fact I was bulging out of them and I, me, Shaena…..I worked out!!! 🙈🙈

Yes, you read that right. I got out my yoga mat, I busted some moves, I worked up a sweat and you know what? It felt bloody amazing!! I mean, it’s gonna hurt tomorrow…majorly! But I got it done…as pathetic as it was and I’m proud of myself! 

In 2 weeks I start a new 12 week program. If you’ve read any of my previous posts about fitness you’ll know that a couple of years ago I started Kayla Itsines’ Bikini Body Guide. I never ever made it through the 12 weeks, and although I’ve seen that it can be a fab program for a lot of people it just wasn’t for me. So I saw that Sinead Disaya (pro Aussie tennis player and personal trainer) was offering her 12-24 week fitness guide on instagram for free for a short time. I of course I got right in there and grabbed the offer. I mean, who doesn’t love a freebie?! But I checked out her workout style and it seemed to be more of my kind of thing! So 30th Jan the 12 weeks Sweat Believe Roar challenge starts and in an effort to not die in week 1, I thought I’d better ease myself back into this whole fitness thing again. 

So I found this app on instagram that has yoga workouts for fat loss and fitness. I took a look and I liked it so that’s what I tried out today. They have lots of free workouts in different styles and for different lengths of time depending on what you feel like doing on the day. So today I did the fat burner without. Holy hell….it was only 14mins but it was a killer. Who knew that yoga could make you sweat like that?!! 💦

I was meant to hit the cross trainer afterwards but I could barely manage 10 minutes! Oh well….I didn’t kick myself for it, I just focused on what I had done and was proud that I didn’t just come home from work and collapse on the couch! 

So this was day one of my fresh start. It’s taken more then a few steps to get here but I’m here none the less and it feels good 👌

A 6 week fling or a lifetime commitment? 

This weekend marks the end of my Fit Body Bootcamp 6 week challenge. Now admittedly when I decided to do this challenge I thought at the end of the 6 weeks I’d look in the mirror and be like “wow Shaena! You look amazing!”. Ok so that might not have happened but here are the things I’ve learned and the changes I have noticed… 

Mood and motivation 

When I started out I was still crawling out of a very dark place. My confidence was in shattered and I was not a happy bunny. As we are told over and over exercise helps release endorphins in us, lifting our mood and making us feel a lot brighter. I’ve always known this to be true but sometimes breaking out of that viscous depression cycle can be hard. When you are down your energy levels are low, your motivation is non existent and you generally just don’t want to make the effort to do anything. That’s where I was and I needed to snap out of it. Thanks to a little push from my friend Becca I signed up for my free 3 day trial with FBBC and enjoyed the sessions so much I embarked on the 6 week program. 

So have those endorphins worked their magic? Yes they have…aside from the odd down day I’ve generally felt more up beat, have more life in me and my motivation to get things done has improved not only in relation to my health and fitness but also at work. I’ve even had people comment on how much more up beat and positive I am. And on those down days I make sure to choose the dumb bells over the duvet! 

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The most obvious physical change I’ve noticed in myself has been my strength. When I started out with FBBC I was back to doing push ups on my knees, the thought of just one burpee would fill me with dread and commandos….hahaha…what a joke! 

But less then 6 weeks later I’m back doing push ups on my toes (not all, but as many as I can), burpees are slow but the fear has gone and I can actually do commandos!! I’m so proud of myself for making such good progress in quite a short amount of time. I knew it was possible because I’ve done it before, but I guess with me it’s about having someone to push me and tell me that I can do it as I often give into those negative thoughts that tell me otherwise.

Balance 

Round about week 4 of the challenge I started to slip a little….or so I thought. I was still getting my workouts in but I wasn’t quite sticking to the food plan. I was still around 80% on track but I my food portions were a little off and I gave into the odd treat. But rather then feel like I failed I looked at things differently. 

For me, I didn’t want the 6 week challenge to be….well, just that I suppose. I wanted it to be something more. I wanted it to be the start of a new habit. Something that would last longer then 6 weeks…something that I would stay committed too. So the slip ups, days off, cheat meals I decided not to see them that way. Instead I decided that I would call it balance. 

Each time I embark on a new health and fitness journey, I go all or nothing. I’ve mentioned this before. I struggle to find the balance and because of that I end up getting tired, bored or I burn myself out. So to avoid the rest days that turn into rest weeks and the “fuck it” food moments that spiral out of control I will allow myself the time and space to breathe and once in a while let myself be only 80% perfect! 

Mindset 

I don’t think I need to say much about my mindset. I think everything I’ve said so far is proof enough that my mindset is where it needs to be.

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The most important thing I’ve learned over the last 6 weeks is that I don’t just want this to be a phase. I want this to be a permanent lifestyle change. In order to do that I don’t think I’m ready to go it alone just yet. I still need more guidance, structure and basically someone to kick my ass when I’m not sticking with the program so to speak. So I’m staying with the FBBC family for a little longer. They’ve been amazing. From Oli’s motivational emails and additional workout options, to the ever supportive ladies in the Facebook group and of course our trainers…Callam, Craig and Adam. You guys have been awesome. I may have wanted to cry at times but you guys have pushed me and made me realise I can always do just one more rep! 

So what’s next?

THE GAME CHANGER!! 

Food fails! 

As I come to the end of week 4 of the fit body bootcamp challenge, I’m a little disappointed in myself. I’ve stuck to the workouts….got 3 HIIT sessions in this week and a decent 45min LISS workout as well. But some naughty food habits have crept back in 😕 

I started the week off well with all my meals prepared according to the plan. But I think I got to about Wednesday and started letting the odd treat slip in. Then on Thursday and Friday I’m pretty sure my evening meal portions were too large as I definitely felt i’d over eaten. Then yesterday I met friends for a late lunch and ate this….. 


Oh and there was wine last night….Woops! 🙈

So what now??? Well I’m not going to cry about it or beat myself up. Even with me going slightly off track I reckon I still stuck to the food plan 70% of the week. And that burger was bloody amazing so no regrets there 😂

But I know this sort of behavior is only going to slow down my progress and prevent me from achieving my goals so I need to sort my shit out!! 

So this week I’m getting back on it! I’m going to make sure I fill my food grids in, im going plan my meals a little better and I’m going to keep reminding myself why I started this journey in the first place! 

The road to your dreams is never straightforward and perfect. There are bumps, road blocks and sometimes even massive gaping holes, the important thing is how you get passed these and keep going. So with that I’m going to get my lazy ass out of bed and smash out this Sunday morning booty session and get back on track!! 


Happy Sunday folks xx 

Eat, sleep and move ❤️

This time last week I was on holiday countdown….how can it be that it’s all over already?! Alex and I had the best time….Croatia is a beautiful place and I definitely want to go back there again! Here are just a few pictures from our trip…


So anyway….back to reality and back to work tomorrow! Oddly I’m not feeling too sad about it to be honest. As much as we didn’t want to leave I made sure that I didn’t let the post holiday blues spiral and kill my positive attitude. I was tired when I got home today but dragged my ass to FBBC this evening and got back on it!!! 

Just want to go back to this time last week again. The Tuesday before I flew out to Croatia I had a little progress review with Oli from FBBC. We had a chat about how I was getting on and discussed my goals in more depth. I know my goals are realistic and achievable because I’ve done it before but we meeded to figure out why I couldn’t make the habits stick. There were a few different reasons but the two big ones for me were balance and my mental health struggles. 

First Oli talked me through what he called the depression triangle… 


I mean it’s pretty obvious really….eat well, exercise and give your body the rest it needs by getting a decent nights sleep! When I’m in this routine if you like, everything feels good. I’m brighter, more energetic and the depression leaves me alone. However, when any of these slip for more then a few days that’s when I’m in trouble. So I need to keep on top of these 3 things which I know I can do but I have to avoid burnout. 

That brings me onto balance. The reason my healthy habits won’t stick is because I’m an all or nothing kinda girl. I’ll workout like a crazy person for weeks/months at a time but then all of a sudden it’ll stop. I get exhausted so I start with a rest day,which turns into a few rest days and then all of a sudden 2 weeks have gone by and I don’t even know where my training shoes are anymore! Same goes for food….ill be pretty strict with myself and then I’ll just binge for a week. So the routine starts to fall apart and before you know depression is knocking at my door again with its friends; self loathing, failure and what’s the point. The sleepless nights kick in and everything just falls apart. 

So how do I avoid that? Well, Oli asked how many times a week I wanted to train. I said 5….he looked at me and said “no more then 3!” I must have looked horrified because he then said…”ok then, 4″. But then he asked me to think about it on a larger scale rather then focus on a week. He suggested that I work on the basis that there are 4 weeks in a month (roughly) so multiply that by 4 sessions and you have 16. So I have to aim for 16 sessions a month but keep the routine flexible. This way if I’m too busy at work or having too much on one week I can just get a couple of sessions in. But on a quieter week I might do 5 or 6. This made much more sense to me and hopefully will help me avoid that “I messed up because I didn’t make it to Monday’s session” feeling. 

So now the holiday is out of the way it’s time to get on and smash my goals whilst hopefully remaining positive, energetic and balanced. 


So off to bed now to get at least 8 hours sleep….so I can conquer the world tomorrow 💕

Death by Lisa

Today I met up with a group of strangers, in a park and we tortured ourselves with a Kayla Itsines BBG workout in the freezing cold!! It was AWESOME!!! 🙂

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I know I’ve been on and off with the BBG program but I’ve been determined to not give up fully and these girls have been like little fitness angels encouraging and supporting me all the way. When I’m feeling rubbish they spur me on, when I’m sick or injured they tell me to rest until I’m ready to start again. Considering I’d never met some of these people until today I know I can count of them to have my back!!

BBG is tough! Like, really tough! Kayla certainly knows how to push us to our limits. Trying to juggle the program with the gym classes I love has been hard. But after seeing the amazing progress others have made I really want to get through this 12 weeks and hopefully move onto BBG2!!!! I’m never going to be skinny…I don’t want to be skinny. I love my food too much lol!!! I just want to be happy in my own skin. Confident, strong and proud! And I really thing Kayla….and these girls will get me there! 🙂

So how was today? Well first I met Lisa who has been the super efficient organiser by sorting us out with a work out plan, date and time. And she’s totally lovely!! Then one by one the girls rocked up….Ceri, Jess and Veronika….Neesha, Rosie and finally the BBG Midlands meet up instigator Laura and her friend Alessia. 🙂 🙂

With all the rain yesterday and it being still wet on ground we struggled to find a decent spot to workout. We almost destroyed the bowling green but then were told we could workout there! But once we got started it was great. We had music, a nice spot on the main path to gain a good audience (LOL!!!!) and each other!! Lisa’s choice of exercises kicked our butts but I know we all enjoyed it!! Burpees, jump lunges, push ups, jump squats and sit ups……we did the lot!!

Afterwards the comedy started…..Laura’s continuous technology fails! LOL! We spent a lot of time trying to get a decent photos!! We laughed so much!! And then it was time for the best part of the day…FOOOOOD! My friend Sarah had recommended the Plough in Harborne so I booked ahead and off we went to fill our belly’s. The food was amazing and we had lots of chats, giggles and obviously planned out next meet up!!!

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I had the best day!! So thank you girls and thank you Kayla. You have inspired me, motivated me and given me a reason to keep going with my fitness journey! As slow as it might be….its happening!!!

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